So I’m in the midst of a set back here, since I damn near broke my toe on Saturday…according to my doctor “It’s not broken but you smushed it pretty good!” Which I’m just going to pretend means that it’s jammed, bruised, and has a broken blood vessel to top it off, because that’s what it feels like. Initially I hoped it was only jammed, but once I felt it swell up and my shoe started to get tight, I realized that it was probably worse. I still didn’t think it was broken based on the fact that I was still walking, but once I still couldn’t move it this morning I figured I needed to get it checked. Anyway. Standing causes it to swell really bad and then get numb so I’m going to be stuck sitting down for the next week or so. I’ll try to keep my eating on track, but even that is harder as I can’t stand up long enough to prepare a decent meal. We’ll see how it goes. Today Josh took me out to eat after we saw the doctor, (because clearly I’m a spoiled 6 year old) but the meds she gave me made me drowsy and not hungry so I still have 85% of my food in a to-go box and I’ve been snacking on it throughout the day.
I think somewhere between Monday and today, I got lost in the haze. It’s truly been weird these past few days, and I think I’m going to let myself take a break and start hard again on Monday.
I know that I could say I’m going to start again right this second, and forget the mistakes I made between yesterday and today, but if I’m being honest with myself, I know that I need a break. My parents are coming tomorrow and we have plans to go out. Saturday we’re driving down to Magnolia for the Blossom Festival, for which Joshs parents have already purchased steak tickets.
I’m not giving up, I’m not stopping, I’m just letting myself have fun the next few days without feeling bad about it. I know that I’ve put in a lot of hard work today, and I have no intention of letting it all go to waste! I counted my cleaning efforts as a workout on Monday, but I think I overdid it because I ended up taking a huge nap yesterday. As a result, I only ate one meal, and then I drank, and everything just went to hell. I’m not hungover at all, but my stomach has been very angry with me today.
So I’m trying to keep things in check, and finish cleaning and getting the guest room ready without over-exhausting myself. Hope everyone else is having a better week than I am! Not that mine is bad, it just got crazy…I’ll be much happier once my parents are here tomorrow! My most favorite people in the world! :)
I’ve been busy all day since my parents are coming to visit Thursday and my house hasn’t had a proper cleaning since my giant spring cleaning spree that happened in early March. Not that it’s horrible or anything, I mean, I do keep up with it, it’s just the vacuuming in the dark dusty corners and throwing out old mail that piles up in the empty bookshelf cubby that sort of gets away from me. So windows are open, things are airing out, laundry is going, and the trash is quickly filling up despite this morning being trash day. I had breakfast and lunch, and am on track for a
good great day, I just didn’t have time to sit and photograph before scarfing things down and jumping right back into cleaning! (I didn’t really scarf.)
Anyway. If I don’t get around to a workout today I’m not going to kick myself over it because I’ve literally only sat down to eat and to scan in a few embarrassing high school pictures that I came across in my cleaning spree. :)
Male giant panda Hua Ao reacts as keepers spray down him with a hose to help him cool down in the hot weather at a zoo in Yantai, China
Picture: China Foto Press / Barcroft Media (via Pictures of the day: 11 May 2012 - Telegraph)
ohmygoodness. Not food or health related, but HOW CUTE IS THIS?!
Sorry I haven’t been posting photos or logs the past few days, I promise I’m keeping up! Today was great (except for the drinks! :P) and tomorrow I’m very excited to be making quinoa and fish for dinner! Today was kind of weird, though, int that I slept in a bunch, and had a small lunch immediately after my workout…which I had to get in because I skipped yesterday! I’m ok with that and all, I mean, I know I need at least one day off a week, but…I don’t know. It just makes me feel…anxious when I skip a day. I’m going to have to get over that, I guess. I know it’s not feasible to work out EVERY SINGLE DAY till the end of time. Ughh. Ok. I’m not really feeling this right now. Later, all.
Soo these are pretty nasty. Ironically the ones they think are ‘low’ on the gross-out factor scale were pretty high on my gross-out factor scale. (Wood pulp and cotton in shredded cheese? EWW! So glad I always shred my own!) Also glad I don’t eat jelly beans or gelatin, although I do use it to make marshmallows in winter. (YES, I am one of those stuck-up foodie’s who refuses to eat store-bought marshmallows.)
I don’t think I posted last nights dinner log…hm. Well, ok, here’s what happened. After dinner I was still behind on calories so I threw a chocolate Vitatop in the toaster oven, and chopped up some strawberries and raspberries while it toasted. It got me up to speed, put my fiber sky-high, tasted like dessert, and all was well with the world. Or so I though. Remember how I mentioned I had a headache when I started working out, but it kind of subsided? It came back. With a vengeance. By the time I decided I’d had enough and was going to bed, my head was throbbing. Have you ever had one of those headaches where it feels like a normal headache but the second you move, it feels like someone took a sledgehammer to the side of your head? It was that kind of headache. I managed to brush my teeth and get into bed, but kept waking up. Every time I’d wake up I would think I was ok, but the second I’d move it would hit me again. It wasn’t exactly a migraine, which I get like twice a year, but it had the same effect. Every noise hurt, every move hurt, and even now that it’s gone I’m completely exhausted. When Josh got up I had him bring me some aleve, and I ended up staying in bed til after 3 today. It sucked and all, but I seem to be ok now (other than having virtually no energy). I had breakfast and lunch kind of squashed together, and I gave in and let Josh buy pizza for lunch, but I limited what I ate (less than three months ago I was downing a whole medium pizza over the course of a day!) and saved most of it so that I can have lunch over the next few days. I also still did 51 minutes of dancing, no crazy cardio or heavy lifting today.
On a happier note, though, I stepped on the scale when I got up and was down 5 lbs! I know that the sodium packed pizza will probably throw that off if I weigh again in the next few days, but I’m going to try not to get on it again until next week. :)
Lunch! Which, I promise I’m not just eating now. I made my lunch, ate it, made Joshs’ lunch, then worked out while he ate. And so I’m just now getting around to logging it while he’s working out! I swear, I won’t ever get tired of this turkey sandwich. Added some carrots to my normal lunch…mostly because I’m getting tired of grating them up for my salad at night so I’m trying to fit them in as snacks & sides to other things! Anyway. As soon as Josh gets done I’m going to go make my giant dinner salad and then get settled in my chair for the evening and watch all my shows that are currently being recorded. (I love my DVR.)
Did 64 minutes total today, of 5 different workouts…feels great! I had a slight headache when I started and almost pooped out after my warm-up, but I kept powering through it, reminding myself of why I’m doing all this. For me. No one else can do it for me, no one else can motivate me, whatever they may say. :) And I must say, I’m finding out that I’m quite pushy sometimes!! :P
Breakfast today, lunch, dinner, and daily totals from yesterday. Ugh. Lunch. So we went to the grocery store before eating, which was a horrible idea…by the time we got in line to checkout I grabbed a bag of regular cheetos (despite having a bag of individual sized baked chips in the cart, which I could have easily opened and had one of) and ate them on the way home. I didn’t go over my new daily limit, but that was a lot of cheetos, and it made it to where I couldn’t really have anything else besides a small sandwich for lunch and my regularly planned dinner. But what’s done is done, and, besides the individually packaged baked chips that go with my lunch, usually, there are no more ‘tempting’ foods around. Not to mention, I normally eat before I get that hungry, but I’d been waiting for Josh to get off a conference call so we could go get groceries so that we could both eat. Unusual circumstances. Hopefully it won’t happen again. Hope everyone has a great…Wednesday. Haha, almost said Tuesday…yay, a week and a day til my parents come to visit!!!
So I’ve been thinking a lot about my calorie intake and how it may actually be hindering me rather than helping. I’ve always known that less calories + more exercise = results because that’s just how it works, right? But in the first month of eating right/working out I dropped a few pounds and toned up a little, but since then things have seemed to stalled. Rather than panic, though, or lose hope and decide that it’s not worth it and I’m a failure (which has always been my reaction in the past when I reach this point), I’m trying to work through it and see what I can do to start losing again. And time and time again, the answer seems to be UP the calorie intake. I’m getting the nutrients I need because of the giant salads I eat for dinner, but as much as I’m working out (like an hour a day five days a week) I really think I need more calories, and to focus on getting some of those immediately after my workout. So I upped my daily limit to 1400, which is actually a bit…scary. I mean, I know when I don’t log/count my calories, and on days I eat out, I eat wayy more than that, but…I don’t know. 1200 has always kind of been my go-to number for ‘dieting’. But I guess I just need to remind myself that a.) this isn’t a diet, it’s a lifestyle change for the better, and b.) clearly, 1200 is not yielding the results I want so something has to be done. Any lower than that is bordering on dangerous, so the only option seems to be go higher. Of course if it doesn’t work, I try something else. No big deal. (I have to keep telling myself that.) I’ve spent the past 6 years gaining all this weight so it’s not going to fall off overnight, it’s going to take time…and if it takes one, two, three weeks, even a month longer than my ‘plan’, oh well. That’s certainly better than continuing to gain, and eating myself to death! Slow and steady wins the race! ;)
Also, this is why I eat breakfast at noon. We’re night owls in this household.
So uh…yeah. I guess I’m not the best at making pretty food, but holy crapperoli this was GOOD! I didn’t feel like making a bunch of different things so while I waited on the water to boil for my oatmeal I got a scoop of almond butter, some ground flaxseed, and some cocoa powder and dumped it all in with the oatmeal…then I realized my water wasn’t boiling because I’d forgotten to turn on the stove (maybe it’s for the best that I didn’t try to actually cook anything, huh?) so I also threw in a slightly mushy banana into the mix and considered not adding any water but then it did finally start to boil so I poured in just a bit (probably less than 2 oz total) and mashed/swirled/scraped/whipped it all together…and like I said, despite it’s somewhat…swampy appearance, it was awesome. High fiber, low calorie (well, about right for breakfast anyway) and if you’re on the go you could make it with a bit more water or add some milk and have an almost shake-like consistency and drink it. I love finding simple, healthy, tasty new staples to make for breakfast.
Also in this post, totals from last night. After my salad I realized I was wayy low on calories, thanks to all my avocados having gone bad over the weekend, so I had a spoonful of almond butter to fill in the gap! Going to the grocery store here in a bit so hopefully hitting my goal will be easier today. :)
Lunch! Tasty, filling, fiber-y, pretty…what more do you need?! I feel like dancing :)
Wow. This is an amazingly powerful video. I’m not in a bad mood anymore after watching it. In fact, after I watched it and got through crying, I went and worked out for 40 minutes. And I feel great now. :) I hope this makes your day better too!
Breakfast. Not in a good mood right now because I have cramps, and there’s no caffeine in my house (well, not any that I can drink without putting effort into making, anyway) and for whatever reason I had a horrible anxiety attack yesterday, and then Josh took me driving because that usually helps calm me down, which it did until Orion threw up in the backseat. Ughhh. Yesterday was just…ugh. So. Here’s hoping today will be better! Off to a good (if caffeine-less) start, maybe I’ll run to the store, who cares if I’m still in my pajamas. It’s just one of those days.